Now that I have you all caught up, let’s move on.
As you now know, my life has had several pretty major changes in the past 8 months or so. I have found myself longing to better know my God and grow in understanding.
I started something new. I started praying and asking God for a word or phrase for the season of life that I am walking through. I heard about this from a mentor. Jeff and Alyssa Bethke are awesome people who have written outstanding books about identity and walking in Christ’s love and what it is like to live as a Christ follower. You guys should totally check out their books [see more information about them below]. They also have a podcast which is where I heard Alyssa share about receiving a word or phrase that really characterizes your current season of life.
I first started it in July. This is when I really started seeking out and asking God to give me a word or phrase. The word that he gave me was preparedness. As I meditated on this and began to seek out what He wanted me to learn, He gave me Ecclesiastes 3:1-15.
“There is an appointed time for everything. And there is a time for every season under heaven….A time to plant and a time to uproot what is planted…A time to tear down and a time to build up…A time to embrace and a time to shun embracing…”
I began to see how this word was truly fitting for the season of life that I was in. It lasted from about May until October. I was preparing to student teach, preparing to finish college, preparing to move back to my hometown into my own place, preparing for the birth of my nephew, and preparing to start a new life.
There were days that I dwelt on all the changes and felt overwhelmed. It was in those moments that I felt God speak my word of preparedness and I realized that He was preparing me for my destiny. Student teaching was the first time I was able to feel like a real teacher. I had a classroom, I had students, I had the responsibility of lesson planning and teaching and managing the classroom. God was preparing my heart to trust Him. It became very tangible to me that He never left me and never would. He walked with me, gave me strength, brought me joy all while constantly loving me with a neverfailing love.
This season of a few months was a season where God was moving in my heart. He was drawing me close to Him so that I could began to change the way I saw. Change the way I viewed my life, challenges in life, and people in my life. He was revealing truth to me and helping me to better understand His grace, joy, and mercy. He was building up a community of people around me who supported me, encouraged me, and spoke His truth to me through them.
You see, God was pursuing my heart. He was chasing me down through my thoughts, failures, and distractions. He sought me out. And He was patient with me until I realized just what He was doing. His love and grace have become so tangible and real to me.
Once I saw the work that God was doing in my heart in this season of preparedness, I began to pursue Him as He was chasing me. I prayed and sought to know the heart of God. I wanted more. I wanted to be just like Jesus. One song became my anthem in this season.
Away from the noise;
Away to hear your voice and meet with you.
Nothing else matters, my one desire is:
To worship you, I live
To worship you, I live, I live
To worship you
To Worship You I Live (Away)
Israel & New Breed
I sang this song over and over and over again. I was declaring that my life was God’s. Whatever I did was going to be a form a worship to Him. Nothing else mattered, as along as I was giving God glory and praising Him through my actions, words, prayers, and thoughts.
Little did I know just what exactly He was preparing me for.
“…the God of all grace, who called you to His eternal glory in Christ, will Himself perfect, confirm, strengthen, and establish you. To Him be dominion forever and ever. Amen.”
1 Peter 5:10 – 11
A Girl Being Relentlessly Pursued by God
P.S. Check out Jeff and Alyssa Bethke at their website here.